It’s right that you should take the easy way this time. The more difficult choice is unlikely to be the right one. But, you know what you’re like, so don’t let yourself wallow in self-pity. Those closest to you do sympathise and are doing their best to earn your trust.
You used to be such a creative person and this side of you is still there, if a little hidden. Your feelings are changing all the time – some days you go through a whole list of emotions from dawn to dusk – and some sort of creative stuff will help you deal with this. You love all things mystical so put a positive spin on this. Perhaps you could think about lucky charms or lucky spells. Make them up for a bit of fun!